I can’t do this anymore. I don’t wanna be with my boyfriend he makes me feel good physically but I don’t wanna be in a relationship where it’s going no where. I let him cross the line and it was a mistake. I lost my virginity to someone I am not in love with. I made mistakes I wanna fix it but I feel trapped, too in and don’t know how to stop it. I don’t wanna let my first go because I will miss him and I’m so lonely right now, I feel like I have no one. My mother wants to mold me to be someone I am not and believe in something I do not.
All my bestfriends have boyfriends and are caught up in that drama and I don’t wanna bother them with mine. I don’t have friends anymore they all distanced themselves. I know it’s all temporary and I will find new friends but for now I’ve never felt more alone.
Honey just do what you need I was in the same position and here’s what will happen if you stay… you will stay trapped.. let him go and something better will come along.. being with someone who you don’t love will hurt not only you but him as well it’s better to just tell him it’s not working out for you and block him then stay there and end up crying because your relationship crashes and you just can’t stay happy.. just because he is the one who took your virginity does not mean you owe him.. don’t make your self feel like you are stuck to him because you have done that.. there are lots of happy in love couples who have lost virginitys to other people not each other and you will find your true happiness as well.