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I lost my best friend

I don’t even know how to start this so I guess I’ll just get straight in to it.
It was last fall, towards the end of September when I lost my bestfriend. We were really close, we told each other stuff that you would only tell your personal journal. Sometimes I felt like she was the only person I cared about in the World. We were really crazy together we created a whole fantasy or random nonsense that was so funny, that well, we’d wee ourselves laughing… When I think of these memories I smile but it hurts. It really hurts. I’ve never met anyone like her in my life, we were so opposite but the so similar at the same time <- it sounds peculiar right, but it was true. She liked explanations, to know why we are here on Earth and I liked things not making sense and believing in the impossible. But we both wanted to travel, we both wanted to see the world and planned it all out, on our ‘future bench’ in the main street of her town – I haven’t been there since the last time with her when we collapsed laughing at pair of trousers… It has nearly been 8 months and I haven’t talked to her since.
During the summer holidays we didn’t see each other much and then when we were back at school everything was normal for about week until we started to argue and we had one really big one. She told me how she really felt and the things she told me really hurt. She didn’t curse me or anything like that, she just told me the truth and I told her the truth, that I didn’t want to lose her but I’d rather her be happy. The Monday after that we apologised to one another and everything was normal then she started hanging out with these other girls more and ignoring me more until one day she just stopped. Completely stopped.
I was alone, I had no one, that was until I told one of my other friends what had happened and she stayed with me because something similar had just happened to her.
Since then I have made new friends, I have 3 closest friends, 1 which is the girl who stayed with me before. I had already known her since I started Secondary School so it wasn’t awkward for us, but it took me a bit to open up to the other two. However now I spend more time with them and they have, particularly one, had exactly the same interests as me and we get on very well. But it’s not the same you know? I can’t laugh about the most random of things and have to be careful of what I say. It’s not like I can forget her easily either because she is in most of my classes, at least one every day! I wish I didn’t have to see her any more because it hurts so much, I still cry like it just happened constantly. It is 00:46 right now and I have to be up for 6:30, I can’t even sleep at all I just needed to at least share my feelings even if no one reads this… I wish… I wish I could live my dream and move to South Korea or Japan and meet new people and be myself and be, happy.

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