I am a stay at home mother and girlfriend. I have 3 kids and 3 step kids. My two step kids don’t live with us. Things were just fine until my boyfriend started using meth again. I don’t know how long I can take this. I cant stop thinking about us and what happened last year. I don’t want to go through what I did last year. I love this man he’s a totally different person when he’s clean but now he went back. It fist rates because I can threaten him about leaving and he don’t care. I don’t know what to do but wonder I should or just live in misery. I can’t sleep when he’s home and not home. I wonder I look up all the things we shared and I just sit and cry. What should I do?
let go of him he is not good for you and your children do it for them not only yourself
just dont assume he actually knows
this is exactly how you feel. it feels like it should be so obvious to him, that it makes you assume he is purposely choosing the drug over you and that he just doesn’t care.
its not easy to clearly communicate , in a direct way thats not a little bit passive aggressive but maybe that is because you know theres a chance he will just start to lie to you about not using etc..and it just gets really hairy bad from there.
I have been on both ends of this scenario.
the one I love just decided to ghost me one day instead of tell me , confront me , anything regarding the drug use , and in retrospect part of me feels like had she only gave me a choice a chance , my heart for sure would choose her over drugs.
if only it was that simple. the way drugs affect the brain though , especially meth and cigarrettes, heroin and or alcohol , its only easy to say, but not to do.