Betrayal.
Now I know how it feels like to be betrayed, to be left out. To be honest its worse than physical injury. People used to tell me it hurts in heart when you are betrayed. I never believed it. But now I feel it and it’s kind of feeling u feel before you throw up. But at least you feel good after you throw up. But this betrayal feeling is not going away so easily.
All these years I believed it is good to be honest, loyal and being compassionate about your friends. Seems like I was wrong.
I always used to sacrifice my time, priorities to make them happy, many a times act like a joker or stupid to make them feel better.
But guess what I was just a joker to them nothing more.
They just put me into trash and never gave me attention I needed. I think I wasted my time with wrong people and now I regret it. But I also learned an important lesson. Do not give your heart to anybody just like that, they will return you the pieces. Those pieces are of guilt.
I was the victim to me and a criminal to them.
Whatever it was I am glad it’s over early. I hope this shitty feeling goes away soon.
because I don’t want to live with it. I want something better to start to happen. I am not going to stop making new friends. But it may be difficult this time. Trusting people has become difficult now, but it’s better because I don’t want to end up like this ever again.
I hope I get honest, loyal and compassionate people this time.