I am too stupid
Others are better than me
I’m not good at anything
Anyone is better than me
I’m not good enough
I’m not confident
I’m antisocial
I’m annoying
I’m disgusting
I’m stupid
I’m too lazy
I can’t finish anything
No one will ever like me
No one likes me
I make people sick
People hate talking to me
They hate being around me
I’m boring
Hi stranger, I can’t say hi to you. I can’t start a conversation because I know don’t attract you, you don’t want to talk me, you want me to go away.
I don’t know you, but I’m sure you are better than me. You are smarter, prettier. You have more friends and they appreciate you. This makes you confident. You are better than me.
I’m on the bottom of everyone’s lists, am the person walking behind, I’m the “listening “person because no one will care what I say, I’m boring, annoying and stupid. You are better than me. I’m not worth your attention.
I keep trying to convince myself to continue living. Liza, you have a talent. See you did it almost as good as that person which is better than you. I keep telling myself that I’m as good as others, but I’m just failing all the time.
I have friends, all of them hurt me. None of them care, they will forget me very soon. People. So many people, and ALL of them are BETTER than me.
I keep watching movies because I feel like I’m a part of it, as if something as interesting would ever happen to me. The movie ends and I go back to reality. I’m a bad person, I always want something, I’m hungry because I’m trying to fill the emptiness inside me. The emptiness I feel all the time. It’s very hard to talk about it, because all I do is try to fill this emptiness inside me. It’s so painful. I even sin to fill this emptiness, I get sick, I cry, I hurt my mom. She sometimes makes me feel like I’m good enough, but she knows it best, that her daughter is a looser, she will never win, she tells me sometimes, she knows so well. She is helping me, she opens my eyes. I lie to myself all the time, but the emptiness is still there, it hurts so much, it paralyzes me.
Tomorrow. I’ll make myself a better person, I will fill this emptiness. But it hurts too much. And my tomorrow never comes, I’m not good enough.
I walk away because I already know that no one needs me there, I’ll make no difference and I can just go. I can talk to people, which are losers like me, but because life hurt them too, they use me to release their pain. I get hurt. Hurt or be hurt. OH god I’m such a weak person. Yes, I actually hate myself. Too weak to die and live both, oh God, HOW MUCH I HATE MYSELF!!!!
do you really beleive in god?
please answer me
Hey…..Please do not think in this way…. If you really want to see you lucky then please visit any nearest government hospital and there you will see definitely some cases and you will feel lucky for yourself. I can bet for sure. My reason to tell all this thing because God has given you a meaningful life and you have to prove it worth and my humble suggestion is for you that never think that you are looser.. you can do it anything whatever you want to achieve in your but with real determination… I am sure you will do it!!!!!!! Lots of Love and Good luck
Honey, maybe I don’t know you but sometimes I feel the same way you do. People around me are so good and helpful, they are beside me whenever I need them, but when they need me I’m gone! I’m so lazy to help others and I always put myself first. I HATE that so much and I wish I can change. I try so hard but I fail all over again. However, I only know ONE thing! That I want to change and I don’t like this me. I want to be better. You too please believe in your self? trust me talk to someone who will make you feel better and you can talk to me.. If you want.. we will help each other ? we can do it together! DON’T give up yet