When I was ten my big brother (who was 14) came into my bed room one night and said if I wanted to play a game with him. I thought it was weird because he never wanted to play with me, but I said yes anyway.
He told me to take off my clothes I said no, and I did not want to play anymore, but then he said if I did not, he would tell mom that I stole some of her money. I did not want to get in trouble, so I did it.
After that he told me to lay down on the bed with my legs open on the bed. I did it and then he came between my legs and started fingering me. It really hurt. I told him to stop but he said told me to shut up.
He did it for about 10 minutes and then stopped. He told me to never tell anyone what happened. I am 15 now and he’s 19. I live with him now because my moo went to a mental hospital last year.
The other today I came home from school, I was going into my room but my brother stopped me. He said that he needed to talk to me about something, so I followed him into his room. He asked me if I had a boyfriend. I said no and he replied, “do you remember want we did when we were younger?” I said yes.
After that he stared to rub my legs and said do you want to do it again?
I know what he meant, but I was just making sure, so I said what do you mean? He just laughed and said, “you know have sex?” And he started to rub his pants, and said, “I never thought of you as a sister, I all ways wanted to be with you.”
I stared crying and said I am sorry, but I don’t want to. He just smiled and said, “if you change your mid just tell me”. He kissed me on the cheek and walked out.
The next day I hated myself. When I was leaving, he hugged me and said if you change your mind you know what to do. I feel really bad and I am not sure want to do please help.