Do you believe in love at the first sign? I do believe that I can hate someone at the first time I see them, but that is just me. I have a girlfriend, and we have been dating for 6 years now, and in that 6 years I never had another feeling for any other girl, until I met one.

I met this girl through my friend, and she was the one that a friend of mine ask me for the advice to talk to her. I gave him advice, and they started dating. The first day I met her was at my friend’s house, and I knew something was wrong inside of me; I got a feeling for her even it was my first time met her. I knew that I was a bad guy for doing this; got a feeling for my friend’s girlfriend while I already have a girlfriend!!!

Time passed, I met her a couple times more when her and her boyfriend called me to hang out with them. Then, I and her boyfriend started to work together at one place, and I started to see her more and more, and I was sure that I got a feeling for her. I then tried my best to avoid her for 1 year until the day I met her again at lunch with my friend, and my heart started to beat fast again. I felt like I was a completed asshole.

I knew it was so wrong, but I couldn’t help because heart just got beating faster and faster. When I saw her face on that day with her boyfriend; I knew something was wrong between them two, so I started to send her funny snapchat every day to cheer her up, and that day finally came. They broke up, and she told me about it. I felt so sad because I saw her cried. I tried my best to help her during this time, and my feeling for her was getting bigger, bigger days after days. I started to ask myself, who do I like? My current girlfriend which we have been dating for 6 years or a girl who I got a feeling from the first time I saw her??? I know, I am trash, I am so sorry for having another feeling for another girl, but right now I can’t do anything, and the pains in my heart start to turn into the physical pains. I can’t sleep at night because my head is turning around, my heart keep beating faster because I see her every time I close my eyes. I don’t want to lie to myself and my current girlfriend, but I don’t want to hurt my girlfriend either because I know she loves me a lot. I am a loser….