I have never been that girl.

That girl who comes out of a relationships and instantly find herself in another, effortlessly like it was destiny. I guess it was never destined for me to be that girl.

That girl never stops having people confess their unyielding love for them.

That girl who people can’t stop talking about how pretty they are.

That girl who can get guys to buy her a drink at the bar all of the smack of her patent leather soft lips and little hair flips, effortlessly like it was destiny. I guess it was never destined for me to be that girl.

That girl who knows how to flirt properly,

That girl who put her make up on flawlessly,

That girl who can post a photo in Instagram and not find million insecurities lurking at a the tips her finger as she presses the share button and I know that I shouldn’t let things define my femininity.

I know that I shouldn’t let these things bother me but they do.

It’s like having lack of a male attention in this world is seen as an abnormality.

Its seen as less than womanly and I’m always forced ask myself “WHAT’S WRONG WITH ME?’