Only friend you ever had was friends with your sister and only started talking to you because you were around your sister. Without her you are invisible. Only visible to be mocked or pushed around. Completely awkward and weird and unfortunately your black so that makes it even worse.
You can’t fit in around black people or white people, so you just exist outside of the walls. So, I guess you can find guy friends, but can a boy and girl really be friends? Unless they knew each other when they were baby’s till adulthood it’s hopeless.
At some point your goodies will be at risk. So welcome lonerville. And being alone is not that bad well unless you Want to do some “together” activities. Go to the movies alone, go to dinner alone, go on a cruise alone, swimming alone you have yourself so use it!