I just want to say, that God is good all the time. Even when you can’t feel it, even when you don’t believe in Him.
He still there, watching you, waiting for you to reach Him.
Even when things went bad, really bad. I just want to remind you that killing yourself doesn’t solve your problems.
I reached at some point, when I just want to give up on life.
Until the only thing I can do is Pray. Just as simple as “God please help me, I don’t know what to do, I can’t do this by myself”
Surrender yourself to Him.
He knows all your pain and struggle.
Just hold on.
Things will get better, and you will be proud of how strong you are 🙂