I feel like I have depression but it’s not a family matter, its more about my friends.
They still talk to me normally however I feel left out in this group of four people (including myself). I will always be behind them when we are walking together and sometimes they left me behind. I feel suicidal, but I am guessing this is a very pathetic thing to be depressed about. I want to tell them about my suicidal thoughts, but they will just think I’m crazy. I can’t share this problem with my family as they think they raised their daughter wrongly.
I don’t want to die for real, I want to live but I can’t. I really need to tell someone and that’s why I am here, but I really need to talk to someone face to face.
Should I tell my friends or family first?