There’s a lot of things I’ve done in my life that I regret, but the worst thing I ever did was hurt one of my best friends. The worse thing was it wasn’t called for, I did it because I felt like we were drifting apart, and I thought playing the victim would make her feel bad for me and only concentrate on me.
I thought that making myself look so weak she would always be there for me, but I was wrong, I just made her hate me. And the thing is I don’t even blame her, I don’t understand how she stuck around that long.
Honestly the thing I want most in the world right now is just to have her back, but I know it’s never going to happen, because I’m the bad person. It was me, always me, I pulled her down and put her through petty dramas. And for what? My own satisfaction of having her there.
I didn’t deserve her from the start and now that I’ve lost her it makes me sick, I have no one to talk to, no one to laugh with. However, it’s all my own fault, I did this to myself and now I have to live with the knowledge I pushed away one of the nest people in the world.
Sometimes I feel like everyone hates me…just remember to always be yourself and keep on going! If you can’t, talk to her about how you feel and explain everything to her.
I have did the same thing what you have done. I can just say that you have to apologize to her and move on in your life. It can be very difficult but you have to do this you can’t have any regrets in your life. keep fighting.