I am drowning and don’t know what to do…
I am in a relationship that is slowly killing me inside. I am lying to myself and everyone that I truly love. So far, I have managed to lose all my close friends, my happiness, my independence, the love and respect of many people and even a son that won’t come to see me because of him.
I know for a fact that I am not with him for love, I am with him for the wrong reasons. I don’t know for how much longer I can carry on like this. I want to cry and shout and say, “the hell with it”, but why can’t I???? I don’t have anyone to talk to about this. I used to be so strong and independent and now I am nothing, I am nobody. How did all this happen? Please help, anyone, someone….
This was me. He made me feel like I wanted to die; small, worthless and utterly alone, but he made sure to fill my world so that the idea of life without him was unthinkable.
I’ve been living without him for nearly a year, and I feel a million times happier than I ever did when I was with him. All the things he told me, the ways he brought me down and made me feel, it was all nonsense created to make me small. He turned me into someone I was not.
You are not nothing, and the person making you feel like that is not someone you should have in your life any longer. Make the break, walk away from them and you will start to feel better.
You’re not alone. There’s more of us going through this than you might expect.
if you are capabale of leading a llife individually then leave him and be happy.whats stopping you.kids are easy to manipulate they see only the outer care showered by parent they dont understand inner intentions. make your son understand your love for him.