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I am in love with someone who is not ready

I am in love with someone who is not ready to be in a relationship with me…again. It’s a long story. Two years ago, I became friends with this guy that I had a crush on since my freshman year of high school. Ever since freshman year, I just couldn’t get him out my head. We became friends in our junior year of high school. As I got to know him, I fell for him even more. I mean, he wasn’t the most perfect guy and that’s what I loved about him. He made me a better person. After 2 failed relationships, he asked if I liked him and I said yes. It was that day, May 28th, 2014, that I found out that he liked me as well. That day was the best day of my life. Hell, it still is. But, because of our strong friendship, he didn’t want to ruin it. However, a month after, he went back to his ex-girlfriend and failed to tell me. Especially on that day, since that was the day I was going to tell him that I loved him. It fucked me up. It was so bad that I went into a deep depression. I HAD to go to therapy. It was bad. I was hurt. I wasn’t the same after that. But, after a while, I forgave him. I just didn’t talk to him as much during senior year. So, lets fast forward to now. After we graduated, we left high school on a positive note. We didn’t speak or see each other in 4 months. I never saw him again. I always hope to see him. I pass his house on the way to my school but I don’t see him. Recently when he sent me a friend request on Facebook. I messaged him and I found out that he never got over me. Basically, we never got over each other. But I told him how I felt, which felt pretty good. He still apologizes for what he did the year before. And, since he broke up with his ex-girlfriend again, he said that he is “emotionally unstable” and can’t be in a relationship with me right now. He also feels that “doesn’t deserve to get a try with me”, which of course I would give him a chance. Then he sent me this message saying, “I’ve been in a very unstable emotional state. Going for things, then stopping, just suddenly dropping things. I’m a bit bipolar with things…say I’ll talk to people and I’ll want to, then I’ll just want to not talk to anyone at all. What I’m trying to say is I don’t want to make a promise I can’t keep. I’m not saying nothing will happen between us, but I also can’t promise anything will. I’m just being honest so I don’t hurt you in the future. I just don’t know when I’ll be ready for something, and right at the moment, I’m not 100% sure if my emotions are just speaking for me. I just need time to make sure my mind is straight and everything. And also just throwing it in here, one problem I have right now is I don’t have time for anything with work, it’s my life at the moment.” Yet, he does want to try it in the future. I’m not trying to rush him. I actually support him getting his life back together. Of course I want to date him. He is the guy I always wanted. But, I’m afraid that he might not date me at all or go back to his ex-girlfriend (which is worse).I don’t know what to do…

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