Do you suffer depression? I want to tell my story with you and how there are others out there, just like you.

I got raped at the age of 15 by someone I thought I could trust. Obviously not. My life went into meltdown after this. School and home life suffered the worst. So did friendships and relationships. I couldn’t trust anyone, not even myself. I didn’t know who I was or what I was. I failed pretty much all of the subjects at school, completely rude to my mum and the least of it, I couldn’t leave the house without wanting to have someone with me. I have never felt so alone. I didn’t tell anyone what happened to me, I felt so ashamed of myself and so dirty that I let someone invade me like that. When the truth eventually came out, my own friends disowned me. Told me I was a lier and that this individual wouldn’t do such a thing. Never thought they’d be so cruel. Well, at least I knew where I stood. My mum was in two. Very emotional.

Just never really felt so lonely and still to this day, my life is still a complete mess of the aftermath of the destruction that took away my soul.

My school work, well, I was put on behaviour and truancy report. Skived. Disrupted. Still to this day I don’t discuss it. Now on anti-depressants or should I say ‘anantipsychotics’ as people told me. I felt even more ashamed than before.

I want to be free now. I want to share my story with you.