So hey people This is me ,been sad for long .Life gets stressful when you don’t get what you ask from it.I suppose that’s the way it is

So I will start from the scratch .I am 20 and Never was I even engaged in stuffs like love or relationships earlier in my life

So it all started from a website.A social app to be accurate
It was still in its Beta form that time so there weren’t many people around

I got to know a girl from the website A girl belonging to my very own community
we have the very same religious beliefs

So it started from being a friend I got to know her and she me
as i was never so open to anyone .Never did i ever share such feelings of mine with anyone other than me
I used to share Each and everything with her .She is really good non-judgmental a perfect listener i should say

with time we started to talk more
we exchanged numbers
we talked regularly
I was so happy knowing such an awesome person
i used to wait every night to talk to her

okay i forgot to mentioned this even belonging to the same country and religion she was 1000 of miles away from me .So yeah I always hated that distance 🙁

so it became almost habitual for me talking with her like i dont know if it was Love as i was never in love ever before in my life .So i just dont know if i started loving her
But i got really really close to her like she was an important part of my life
i used to get angry on her when i expected something of her and she didn’t do it

with time she got super busy on her own life
now it still gets me saddened checking my phone and not seeing anything from her

what at this point of my life is running in my head is i should concentrate on my own life and not just care of her the same way she doesn’t of me
it gets me really stressful and emotional when i think of the fact that i was never as important a part of her life as she was for me

so yeah at this point i am just trying to cope up with my daily stress regarding her
it makes me wonder if i am not good enough A Person well i guess now
time will decide that for me

As of now i am trying to build up my self esteem i gotta love myself before anyone starts loving me

also a piece of advice for all folks out there
Never gets so much attached to anyone out there no one will love you more than your own parents .Always treat them with respect
and love your life
and avoid one sided love
it hurts real bad