Why always me. In every single situation my mother advises only ME of the ways I could use to avoid these useless fights with my brother. Is it because I am a girl and an object that my brother can use to relieve his anger. What about the tension he gives me. If I don’t say a word for days and stay quit, she is like, “why don’t tell me? You think that you are very great and can handle everything on your own.” in a very arrogant way. And if I speak on the spot, she is like “IGNORE HIM”. Neither ignoring nor speaking on the spot works.
And today the worst day of all. Now I no longer feel like a family. I am more like a stranger now! My brother says that I EAT MORE of everything and he is gonna divide each and every bit of everything! everything! It is not even true…. It hurts because there are instead so may sacrifices that I have made in foods and almost everything. And this dividing thing is just so disgusting. It’s like we are not a family anymore.
It was my result declared yesterday. I got a perfect 10 CGPA. Instead of appreciating me he is like ALMOST EVERYONE CAN SCORE A 10 CGPA. He doesn’t even get a A1 and is talking to me like this. At the end of the day, I look at his face when he is asleep and I just forgive him, he’s cute, he’s MY BROTHER! Someone please tell him to love me as well. I love him too much. My mum has so much expectations from him I guess. I try to teach him sometimes because he is only a year younger to me but he yell and made mother convince that I should not teach him. He doesn’t study now. I don’t care if that’s what she wants. Let it be, if mum says that then what can I do? When I grow up, I promise to god that I am gonna prove her that I am better than him in every single way. I will keep better care of her, provide her with more love than she did to me and we’ll also go to tours in different countries every year, firstly to Finland. I also want to visit Sri Lanka and so much more. Antarctica also. Oh! does Antarctica have any airport? I think to is through seaways only. lol.
Anyways, I feel so negative now, I had so much work to do but theses arguments with him make go like I AM NOT GOING TO DO ANYTHING AND JUST GOING TO SIT ALONE AND CRY!