I woke up with a heavy heart today. Feeling blank, difficulty in breathing and I am anxious …anxious and reasons are many.

I finished a Korean drama series yesterday and I felt the same when I finished the last series.
My life feels so blank that drama easily takes strong control over it.

Obviously, I have nothing exciting in my life. I live some moments of drama, I love adventure and happiness and beauty. I like the feeling of the willingness to die for someone. I don’t have anything like this in my life. Sometimes, I experience drama, but once it finishes, my life is blank again without any feeling or goal and it is without any happiness and the darkness takes over me.

I do expect or want happiness in my life. There are some little dreams I have like travelling the world, tasting cuisines, having a person to die for who loves me the same; but all this happens in a dream for me – a day dream.

Reality is harsh, cruel, and suffocating.

I am suffocating in a dark black hole.