I’m frustrated with my life. All my dreams and ambitions are going down the drain.
My only dream was to get a degree from a foreign university, but now I realise my parents can’t afford it. I’m 17, so now I am sensing that I have to stand on my own. Financially depending on my parents won’t take me anywhere.
I grew up with a cousin who is my best friend, but nowadays I am feeling like he is my enemy. I don’t want to feel this way, but I’m forced to. My cousin is extremely rich because his father runs a hotel and two restaurants. He told his parents that he doesn’t want to do A-Levels, but within 3 months he left for Malaysia, while I am sitting here crying my lungs out to study abroad. My parents just can’t afford it. I never grew up in luxury. I’ve never owned an expensive phone. I’ve never had expensive clothes. I’ve always purchased clothes from thrift stores.
All my life I was praying to God that no matter what I face now, I don’t want to face it when it is time for me to study abroad, but alas!
I am slowly leaning towards suicidal thoughts. Whats the use of a life where I can’t even fulfil a life long dream of mine.
My cousin got everything he desired. I played with his used toys when I was young. I can’t bear this anymore. I might be dead when you are reading this.
Please pray for me. If I die, pray for me so that I can go to heaven. If I am alive, pray for me so that I can achieve my dreams.