Okay, this might be a long one and I just want to share this failed love story of mine.
When I first saw him we were waiting for a bus, he was tall and he wad wearing his eyeglasses. To be honest, I never even knew that we attended the same Uni. However, he was already a fourth year and I was just a freshmen at that time. So, there would be a time on where we would be riding the same bus and our eyes would meet, and damn, his eyes are so attractive that I didn’t looked away from him when he caught me staring at him. Everyday it would be the same, we would ride the bus stare at each other’s eyes but never engaged in a conversation, I never knew his name. Days, weeks, and months have past since that started. Time passed by just like that, however when he graduated we never saw each other that much, it would be maybe once a month or it would be twice a year. And so here we are, I’m already in my fourth year in the Uni, usually people would already forget that kind if encounter since we didn’t have any communication at all, but for me, I never forgot him. He always sticks to my mind, then suddenly in Facebook I saw one of my friend’s post then EUREKA! it’s him! My friend actually knew that guy! So, yeah. I stalked him and knew things about him like he’s a DJ, geek, nerd, funny, and he’s a great photographer, then of course I would see a lady beside him, well who wouldn’t fall in love with a guy like him? He’s handsome, intelligent, witty and has a talent. I never knew that I held a feelings for him I just thought that it would just be a simple crush, unfortunately that simple crush turned into something else. I only listen to him in the radio and would feel happy just listening to his voice. How hopeless I am? I just decided that I should move on to my life and forget about him, I mean he’s got a lady beside him that I know who would cherish him, so I don’t need to man up(?) (Though I’m a girl) and just randomly confess to him. For now I just poured it here and then I would try my best to move on and forget about him. It’s just that I’m a coward when it comes to love, I easily get scared that’s why I haven’t got myself a boyfriend yet. But I just would like to shout this out, “HI! DJ DAVID I REALLY, REALLY, REALLY LIKE YOU!! I’M SORRY BECAUSE I DIDN’T HAVE THE COURAGE TO TELL YOU! BUT SEEING HOW HAPPY YOU ARE ALREADY MAKES ME SATISFIED! NEXT TIME, WHEN I FALL IN LOVE I WOULD REALLY TELL THAT PERSON!”
I really don’t want to tell the whole story that’s why I just wrote it lazily sorry… But still, thank you for this site that I could pour what my heart has been carrying for these five years. 🙂
