I regret what I did.
He was stronger than me he forced me I hate myself that this was not suppose to happen now.
He told me every thing will be fine just relax.
I was very afraid from him and I told him that but he was very angry and he started telling me things that I heard for the first time he star showing me things I never asked to see it.
I started to shake every part of my body was shaking I could not stand up or to move my hands.
One thing I wished for if I can push him away from me and run away and never go back.
Every thing between us was going perfect until he did this disgusting thing.
He started to touch me in places I never thought that someone else will touch but me.
He forced me to lay down on the bed he lied beside me and started kissing me and I tried to stop him but all what he did was laying on me and he forced things to happen.
It hurt a lot it was my painful experience ever.
After he finished and every thing finished he kissed me a long kiss on my mouth and told me now you are mine you can not run away from me.
He get up and went strait to the bath top to finish what he started.
I thought that I will never have the chance to talk about it not because I was afraid but because thought that I will not live for the next 10 minutes I was crying.
The felling that I felt on that day can not be explained.
I started to scrim and shout because I couldn’t take the pain any more.
He run in a rush to see what was happening to me.
He wiping my tears away and apologized to me.
I wanted to slap him with all what I got from power but I did not had the power to move my hand even I turned my face to the other side that only what I could do back then.
He finished his bath and came back to me he hugged me.
I pushed him away and tried to get up to go to the bathroom but I fall on the ground he tried to help me but I did not want him to help me I went alone to the bathroom and washed myself and I had to vomit after every thing he did.
I couldn’t go back to the room so he had to come and pick me up and put me back in the bed he laid next to me hugged me and he went to sleep.
At that night could not close my eyes for a complete 5 minuets because I was afraid from him.
He was just hugging he but I felt like he was smothering me.
I hate him just because of that night.