Sometimes I find myself wondering a little too much and saying much too little. Simply because there are somethings I can’t talk about, whether that’s out loud or even to the person sitting next to me. But maybe I can tell you this. To this day I am happy- although it’s not everyday I feel that. Let’s rewind back 4 years ago. I was 12 and I was just confused about how life worked and why it sometimes worked in these mysterious ways. Maybe it was out for me. But obviously, that’s stupid. The world can’t be out for you. It’s trying to save you. There is a secret I hold to myself. Not everyone may find this as a ‘huge’ secret and to some it may take you back down memory lane. When I was 12, I tried to kill myself. You see, people always say “It’s not a bad life, it’s a bad day”. But sometimes these people don’t realise that maybe it’s a bad year or even a couple if you’re unlucky. Mental illnesses were never openly spoken about. I don’t know, is it the fear of your child having a mental illness, that it obliges you to push it as far away as possible? But in reality it’s so much more closer. But with every struggle in life, comes with it, a story. At the end of the day, every life is a story and these stories are worth telling to help the next person. Maybe, you, who are reading this, may not be able to relate but for those who can, here’s a little wisdom. You may have heard it one too many times. But it gets better. Maybe not in this exact moment but a day from here you will wake up one morning and you will know everything is better. It will hit you and you will feel gracious of life. You will laugh and smile and you will be filled with nothing but happiness. For the meantime, it’s okay to be sad. Sadness is part of our human cycle. It’s humane to feel emotions. Sometimes it’s okay to not be okay. But know, it gets better. One day you’ll look back at life and smile. I said it before and I’ll say it again. Sometimes I find myself wondering a little too much and saying much too little. Sometimes the best thing we can do is not think or wonder, but just have faith in life that everything will work out. Just breathe. We can’t always solve every problem life puts in front of us, we can simply experience. I’ve learnt that you can keep going long after you think you can’t.