I feel so lonely and hopeless. All my friends have husbands, long-term relationships, jobs…and I am still a 25 year old virgin without any relationship experience, currently doing Master’s degree in a distant country. I feel like guys are avoiding me and I have no idea why. I am told I am very pretty and have a great body, dressed up nicely, quite fun and not stupid, but still I just cannot attract anyone. I often feel delusional, pathetic and worthless. For a year now I see myself getting alienated from my close friends, being afraid that people will pity me, growing angry at my parents for raising me with such high self-esteem, angry at myself for being arrogant but full of doubts and complexes. All those feelings plus sexual frustration, no clear career prospects are driving me crazy. I don’t want to live.
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