A lot of people get mad at me because I tell things based on how they really are. Not sure if I am too blunt or what but people seem to get really mad when I speak to them. Most people seem to be only worried about the present where I seem to think about the next move or ways improve or make things how they are supposed to be. I don’t understand most people. I don’t get why they can be so arrogant and use such a one way of thinking. The people around me seem to be living in a alternate reality where they are only worried about small things such as work,school, relationships etc. They don’t think about life in the big picture as I do. The people in mention are content with working their dead end jobs, living in the same place, seeing the same faces, and doing the same things. It’s like humanity has lost all hope and just decided to be content with their hopeless lives but that is not enough for me. I want more in life than that. I’m not taking about material things I’m talking about more quality of life. Being more happy. I am a person who seems to take a lot for granted, sometimes can be lazy, and former drug addict that making progress. I know my worth though. I am a deep thinking individual. My thoughts can roam for miles and I consider myself quite intelligent. I have a severe intolerance ignorance and close minded people. I get very upset over small things but it seems like luck can never go my way. If there is a way for something to go wrong in most cases it does for me. I sometimes have good luck but it comes more in the aid of security and the feeling of someone watching over me. Luck only comes when I absolutely mean it and that’s okay. I get depressed A LOT. I often find it hard to find the energy to get out of bed and get going. I feel that most people don’t think at all and seem to be blinded by stupidity. It is hard for me to keep and sustain relationships with people unless they feel the way I do also. It seems to me like if people aren’t on my level of thinking that I don’t want to be around them or talk to them because they are going to annoy me with their ignorance. I’m not sure if it is just me or not but the people I come into contact with just don’t understand life in the way I do. Most like big social situations and meaningless friendships that go nowhere but that is not what I go for. It seems like 90 percent of the people I see like the big social events and are captivated by it but for me I don’t care for it. I love nature, alone time, time spent with close trusted friends, loved ones. I don’t care to socialise with people that don’t connect with me because what is the point? I don’t want to waste my breath giving someone my thoughts if it is meaningless because they don’t deserve it. I miss the most the meaningful people, the people who actually give a shit, the people who aren’t just trying to get something from you. People these days seem so evil and uncaring to me. Almost everyone I meet with the exception of a few make me wish they didn’t breathe the same air as me. I don’t want them around me because they don’t deserve what I have. I consider myself a very good guy. I’m they guy that you screw over once and I let it slide but a second time I will hold a grudge against you forever. I try to give everyone the benefit of the doubt but just end up being disappointed by everyone. People I know and love have turned on me. I have been though hell in back emotionally and I feel it has crippled me in many ways though I try to overcome it. I also tend to get off subject as you can see. So I will go back to what I saying at the start. Most people for some reason don’t like the truth whereas I live by it. I don’t sugarcoat anything to anyone or to myself. Sometimes that makes me be really hard on myself because I don’t wanna live a lie like most people do. I look at things for how they are. I try to be the best person I can constantly doing everything in my power for everyone with nothing but unfairness in return.
