I sometimes wish that I had a better life, better parents and better everything. Why does life hurt so much. So many people want to live my life but they have no idea, NO IDEA of what I have been through. It’s hard to explain actually. I am not a good person. I want to change myself, I want to change my life. I have no one to talk about myself freely because I’m too afraid to get judged. I want all this to be over, actually I want to back to my childhood life where I had no worries and would just play and eat all day. I know it will take some time for things to be okay like it always does, time will pass. I don’t know. I don’t know anything. I can’t understand myself right now. What do I want? I have no idea. I just want that feeling back, that odour of safety and happiness all around me. I don’t want to worry about all those adult worries at just the age of 16. I wish I never knew what money is, rent is, tax is…… I wish I could live a life again, a better life. I life in which I was not deprived of my father’s love and was guarded by him so that I never had to go through what I’ve been through.