I’m so sad. I feel like total crap. The man that I love and married 8/31/2016 is a complete lie. I was with him since Sept.19,2015. It has been the worst year of my life. I’m 44. I gave in a dated him and fell in love with his gentle side, I had no idea his other side, he is a monster. Cut to the chase he hit me so many times, I would leave and some how my heart wouldn’t let go. He was so cruel. I left this last time for six weeks and was getting out from under his thumb just to be drawn back. So he hasn’t hit me this time, a little but not all crazy like before. He took away all my social media, cut me off from family an friends, except from my child. He took away my cell phone 3 weeks ago like the first week of November 2016. Then he go crazy accusing me I’m doing dishonest things behind his back. Which I wasn’t, I figured it was his wrong doings that were making him accuse me. So on black Friday he left and didn’t come home. It killed me that night waiting till the sun came up. When he did come home at 1pm he had to leave for a family party on Saturday evening. He came home Sunday at 4:30am and fell fast asleep. I didn’t want to do it but I looked threw anyway and found the sad reality, I was married to a cheating liar, that by the way was still married, talking to her and two more women. With in two days I was gone. Now I know I did the right thing by leaving but now I feel so depressed and I miss him so much. I miss a monster. I hate myself and I hate my situation. Will I never find a good person to share my life with. I thought I had it bad before with my Ex-boyfriend, at least he was wealthy and never hit me. He’ll never take me back. It sucks to be me. I really feel horrible, I’m so hurt, I just want someone to hug me and tell me everything will work out. Instead I have no one, I know things will get better, I just wish I could press fast forward. Lord help me please, I feel like dying.
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