I hate my reflection. When I look in the mirror, I hate what I see. I know I’m ugly, fat and everything bad and maybe that’s why guys never try to talk to me, get to know me. I also know that dating isn’t really important right now since I’m only sixteen but, I can’t help but feel so ugly when all my friends have multiple guys confessing to them asking them out, trying to talk to them.
I have acne. Well, it’s mostly gone, leaving scars which are fading slowly but they’re kind of obvious. And that makes me so insecure that I can’t look into people’s eyes when I’m talking to them. They think I’m being rude, but they don’t know why I do that. Not even my friends, or parents, or anyone for that matter. I feel like if I tell my friends, they’ll judge me. My parents couldn’t care less because apparently, everything that matters to them are my grades. They make me feel so dumb when I get a little low on any exam (maybe a B or a C). They make it so obvious of how disappointed they are in me and how they wish I was more like my sister – smart, friendly, skinny, pretty.
I guess I wish I pretty like her too. I wish I was pretty like everyone else.
I didn’t have terrible insecurity issues or anxiety, that some guy would tell me that I’m beautiful. But then, I’m not.