My story is probably not as serious as anyone else’s on this website, and no one will probably read this… but I still just want to vent out this.
I’m just a plain Asian-American college student who kind of lives an ordinary life; with depression.
I’m not as smart as my friends around me. I am not in any clubs or frats. I started school thinking I would study hard and get on the Dean’s list, but ended up failing the courses that I thought I would do well in.
My father has a rare form of lung cancer and is recently not reacting well to chemotherapy.
Right now, I hate my sister because she expects me to do a bunch of chores for her when I am busy doing school work, or has an attitude and talks back to my mom who is stressed out about my dad’s illness. I can’t stand being at home with her anymore.
My boyfriend has been the only thing that keeps me together. I see him every weekend, crying in his arms because of the stress from school, work, and family issues. I am so afraid to lose him because I have been putting so much pressure on him to keep me happy. I’ve never felt so weak and vulnerable to everything around me.
I’m too afraid to go to counseling because I feel like my issue isn’t as serious as others, but I just feel like I am in a deep bottomless hole.
…Someone please tell me what to do.
You should seriously consider for counseling, and yes I have read your story. I am afraid to tell you that you are taking in all the pressure from school, home and relationship. Go for counseling and tell the counselors how you feel and why you’re not coping with this pressure. You are lucky to have a boyfriend by your side, and therefore treasure the time spent with him. Go talk to a counselor and good luck to you.
I am so sorry for all you’re going through. Hang in there. It’s not the end and better times will come. Might not be today, tomorrow or next week but I promise you it will be better. God bless you and your family.