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Depressions Grip

So I’m sitting alone in this rented cottage, tears roll down my cheeks and rain batters the window. So many bad decisions and now look at me. I met my current partner at the age of seventeen, I’m now thirty three and I feel lost and alone. Our relationship was never easy, I suffered depression from an early age. About four years ago he asked me to marry him. I said yes of course and soon travelled to a beautiful village in Spain and booked our dream wedding. I bought all the dresses and organised everything on my own. Six months before our wedding he decided that it couldn’t happen as his sisters were basically going crazy and calling us selfish for wanting to get married abroad, so that was the end of that.

My beautiful wedding dress still hangs in my mums spare room, untouched and unworn. He took me to several places here at home to organize a wedding but it never happened. I became badly depressed as I found out he had been texting other women behind my back. He moved out for awhile and upon his return he promised that we would buy this little rented cottage and make a home for ourselves. Auctioneers and surveyors arrived and I had never been more excited in my whole entire life, I absolutely adored this little home. Months went by and there was no sign of a purchase being made, we had saved for this. He then told me that it’s not where he wants to live and how sorry he was. Depression took hold once again, only this time I’m struggling so hard. Every single morning passes with tears. I’ve lost all interest in myself and in life. The only things that seem to matter to me are my animals, I have rescue cats and a lot of them. In sheer desperation I emailed almost fifty different people for a free log home so I could take my best friends and start afresh. Not one single reply. I guess it’s a cheeky request after all. All my savings have gone and at an all time low. I have two jobs and nothing to show for it. So the rain still batters my windows and tears still roll, will I ever be happy, will I ever know what it’s like to be happy? Who knows.

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  1. Just keep one thing in mind that people face greater problems in their lives. You are not the only one facing the problems. Do not restrict yourself. Learn to enjoy the rain. You never know how badly someone suffers with other problems of life. If you believe in God then show some gratitude and if you do not believe in God then say thanks to nature. It is completely in your hands. Life sometimes acts like a school teacher whom we do not like but we never realize that he/she makes us stronger than others. Start where you are & do not wait for others sympathy. Be strong, Be happy. Enjoy the every moment of life.

  2. Listen I struggled with self-harm, and an eating disorder for years plus of course severe depression. I get it. What you need to do right now though is grow some balls. Go yell at that jerk of a “partner” of yours. Get angry at the world, you deserve some god damn happiness right? Go to the nearest grocery store and start knocking down grocery carts, litter, beep at people when you’re driving and hold your middle finger up. You think you’re in a cage right now but you’re not! BE SELFISH! BE RUDE! You matter before anybody else does!
    This is a girl, telling another girl to not be afraid to free herself. If you need something go out and get that son of a bitch you deserve it more than anybody else does.
    Don’t let anybody pat you on the back and say that it’s ok or to be grateful for what you have because that’s BS. Get.Shit.Done.

  3. Girl! I have no idea what are you waiting for!? You really need to get the hell out of there and kick his ass. He is one of the guys who use girls just for their own benefit and I guess you were one of them. You need to get shit done. Go and live your life! You don’t need to give a fu$#@ to whatever people say. But first, yell your heart out to that jerk.

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