Hi. Just call me Rein. I’m an engineering student and I want to share what happened to me in the past few weeks. Recently, my grades started tipping and I’m starting to lose my motivation to study. I noticed that my grades in the past term of my studies started to tip down and I’m having grades that fail and almost failing. Then at last, I received a probationary status and will get removed from my course if I fail one more time. I tried so hard to finish that term and get at the least passing grades but my motivation is nowhere to be found and I’m falling deeper and deeper in to desperation. I didn’t cheat because it’s like my principle not to cheat. During my midterms, my grades are low but on the verge or just passing (my school gives seventy percent passing mark on a zero-based basis) my grades are around sixty-five to seventy five percent and I’m still in danger of failing. I got really depressed and then I experienced my very first panic attack in my life. It’s like I can’t breathe, my chest feels tight and my feelings are just mixed desperation, fear, sadness, and anxiety. My mother who works overseas happened to be home when it happened and said to me “if you can’t do it anymore, just change your course. We are not forcing you in to things that you can’t do. Whatever happens, it’s your choice and we will respect it.”. That made me still feel fear, sadness and anger since I feel like I will waste 4 years of my hard work, money and time if I will stop now. In actuality, I actually like to be a chef but I just thought that being an engineer is more practical in the long run. So, on that day, I had my personal issue of whether to continue my current studies or stop and shift to another course. At that point, I said to myself. If I happen to pass all of my subjects, I will continue. and if not then I will shift to culinary arts. On the last few days of class, I happen to find out that my grades is not enough to pass and I will most likely fail if I don’t get good grades on my final exam. That made me more desperate and tried my best on that finals. Then I fell deeper in to depression since I felt like I failed on two of my exams. after a few days, I received my grades and got passing on all of them. Just barely but I passed. My probationary status got revoked and I can continue to study engineering. Well, that’s the story of my first panic attack and my evidence for emotional inexperience’s.