I wish I was never been born to this world, it’s an unfair world and it will never will be, well… Let’s keep that to another time.
I live with these people around me, they think they know me, but they really don’t. You see, I am a funny guy, so that makes me acceptable and actually, that’s my way through communicating with them.
The truth is I hate them all. If god asked me before I was born that this will be the life I will be living, that this is the world I’ll be living in, I will absolutely say fucking no. I cannot stand the hypocrisy, knowing I am a hypocrite myself. It’s just there is so much anger in me that I couldn’t get it out. It’s not like I have problems or anything… actually I have a few. Well, I wish my father was dead that will make things better for sure…
I come from a strict society, with strict rules, where everyone is watching you, expecting so much from and waiting for you to fall. That’s where I come from. It’s darkness all around me. The vision is a blur ahead of me. I hope I die young so I won’t have to live in this corrupt world.
You may say this is just another depressed kid, and I may be, or I may be not be. No one will ever read this anyway… Anyway, there will be more to this, I will come back talking about a life. A life that I wish that it never existed.
yet here I am reading this. truly the world is not as bad as it may seem to you and i say this from experience. depression is a sign that you have lost sight of what it is in life that’s truly important, and you must be well aware of the fact it is nothing but one of an infinite amount of perspectives of life. my advice for you is this, don’t squander your potential, your happiness, and possibly your life because of this perspective. bad things happen and this is a fact, there is nothing anyone can do about it. but good things will always happy too. this is also a fact. whether you choose to see it however, is up to you. your father may be someone you’ve hated, and as a result you have all this rage and anger inside of you. this is all a result of you not being able to let go, and move on. move on to bigger and better things. make the changes in your life that are necessary for a happier existence. i know that you are capable of turning your life around for the better. people tend to not give themselves as much credit as they deserve. everyone has the power to change and grow, some may just believe they dont.
I know how you feel. My family expects so much from me. Too much. Sometimes the darkness closes in around me and I have no choice but to break down and cry wondering why the world is so cruel. When my family finds me like this they are so disapointed in me. As if I have a choice.
i get u, i know what u r feeling coz i have also been there infact i am going through it …….i fucking hate my life too nd there is no one who can help me my frnds also hate me nd well everyone talks shit bout me behind my back nd i really can’t do anything coz well am a fucking emotional girl …. i wanna die coz i know there is no use staying alive i just hope u get through ur situation asap