Hello I am larin. I was brought up well. I have no idea how my life is going or were it is taking me. I got everything loving parents, friends all. when I was 15 years I was bullied by a boy who then fell in love with me. We had a pretty time together. BUT he cheated on me with my friend. I was heartbroken. I started drinking smoking. I made bad company. I was totally last. I had no one by my side. most of my friends pitted me but no one was ready to help me. I was in hostel that time. Even my family was not there to help me. I hated myself. then there was a girl called Arya she always told me to be strong and she stayed by my side and asked me to live for myself. she was literally my life saver. She had me in control. I was normal again. I came to Russia for my collage days. I am doing medicine. On my first year, I fell in love with a guy. he was sweet at first. he was so caring. for him I sacrificed all my friends. Then he began to abuse me. Butt I held myself in. I didn’t even tell anyone. I was so scared. wen I went for vacation, my friends and family gave me support and they made me breakup with him. Then we broke up. I was all right tn. but I missed the caring, love, talk. I was broken inside wen I saw happy couple. I wanted someone to truly love me and care for me. I thought I was always a dream for me. then I met a guy he was my ex friend. he was so caring towards me. I started having a crush on him. I know it was all wrong but I fell for him. I proposed to him. We were so happy he made me so happy. but then he tells me he wants to be alone. he never takes me out. He is always lazy and wants to sleep. I hate this but I love him so badly. I don’t know what 2 do. I cry most of the day. I don’t know where my life is taking me
Hi Iarin. I had the same thing happen to me. My best friend in high school dated my ex. I was so ferrous with both of them. I don’t know how old you are but I assume you are still in college. Did you marry this guy or are you just engaged? The best thing for you is to break up with him. I know it sounds hard but if you are this sad you need to help yourself. You have already been through so much and the abuse you went through has made you this amazing and strong person. Break up with him, move out or get your own place. Find a job you enjoy going to. And if you feel lonely get a dog or cat. I recommend reading ‘The Subtle Art of not Giving a Fuck’ by Mark Manson. Hope this helps and i hope you find your purpose.
Hang in there Larin! It seems to me, that you’ve run in to some pretty bad guys in your life. I can’t even imagine how it must have been, getting cheated on and abused by the one you love. Honestly, if someone loves you, they would never hurt you. I think you should get yourself a guy, whos kind, who takes good care of you and is honest to you and most important; loves you, because that’s what you deserve. If the guy you are currently with, is bad for you and makes you feel worse than he makes you feel loved, then I’d say he’s not good for you. But if he makes you feel like the fantastic girl you are, then hold on to him.
I’m not the one to decide, but remember. You have your whole life in front of you. it’s never to late to make a big change and stand up for yourself. Your friend Arya was right about you. You are strong. I hope you will take good care of yourself Larin 🙂
much love
-Anonymous guy