Hi, I am a preteen girl who may suffer from depression, paranoia and may be suicidal. I used to be bullied a lot because of my weight and how I look. I finally gave in because I know I am fat and stupid and ugly nothing can change this. I started cutting myself about a few months ago to take away the mental pain. I recently got into a fight with my twin brother and that didn’t help. I did not tell anyone about my depression or suicidal thoughts. I started to lock myself away from society and I did try to attempt suicide once but I couldn’t find the pills I needed. My sister suffers from autism and kids in my homeroom joke about autism and they joke about abuse and suicide and depression too. Even my own friend does, and she is my best friend. My suicidal thoughts and depression just will not go away. My friend just told me today that she thinks all the girls in our class are ignoring us which made me feel sad. I had lied many times about my personality because I am afraid of what people will think. The reason I am putting my story out there is because I think if you share what your feeling with someone, it might help.