So, I feel worthless. Have for a long time, on and off. Was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. I have a boyfriend of 7 years. He broke up with me 4 times over those years. I am very clingy, I need him. I have done DBT, multi psychologist and therapy appointments but nothing feels to work long term. I have been on 4-5 different medications over the years. They did not work, if not made me worse.
I feel like the odd one out in life, the black sheep in the family. Also, the fact that all these “mental Health treatments” have not worked for me, what now? I have these thoughts or voices in my head a lot that say or make me feel horrible like I am worthless and lonely. I know this is a long rant but I hope someone can say they are going through the same. Why is it medication and therapy works for some but, not for me. It is driving me insane. I am sick of being stuck and in the system of Mental Health!
Hiii
hope you are feeling good today. Let me tell you am a doctor by profession and a known case of BPD. It is a issue most people think can’t be treated . Let me tell you with knowledge and effort we can come out of it because we deserve a better life.
First thing , identifying core issue. Forgiving others and yoursel f for past mistakes and learning from It. Understanding the triggers and making small efforts everyday to come out of it. Instead of being clingy and depending on others for love…let’s first love ourself but in healthy manner. Try making effort to live without person whom we love. Eg. Not talking to them for 24hrs and making decisions in our life without depending on them. It’s our duty to inform them that you are making effirts to recover and they must understand our situation. Even if it seems scary or make you feel uncomfortable, try to complete task. Do journaling. It is very helpful.
you will be better.
Thank you.