I have been going through depression, people had been leaving me. My dad left me and my mum, my aunt abused me. My ex-boyfriend cheated on me, I was bullied. And my mum is threatening to kick me out. I was crying myself to sleep for 4 weeks in a row. I met this guy online. His name is Ryan. He always joked around and made me feel good. We had deep conversations, he opened up about his mum having cancer. I opened up about all my pains. I was a little bit suicidal. He helped me through it, the night I met him I haven’t cried. He told me not to hurt myself. Every time I felt insecure he would tell me that I was beautiful. He was basically my only reason to live, he would always tell me “I love you, Boo. Take care”

But he suddenly told me that he needed a break from his phone. So, he would be offline for maximum 2 months. Every day I wrote him messages about my ‘day without him’. That was the only thing that kept me alive. The hope of him coming back. After a few weeks, he was back. But he didn’t even say something to me. And he just ignores me. It kind of hurts. Knowing those days that he was gone I waited patiently for him. I thought about him every second of the day. I even cried myself to sleep because I missed his comfort.

He has forgotten about me now.

And there is this other girl in the group. He gave her his number and keeps flirting with her in the group. He keeps telling people how sweet and funny she is.

The most painful thing is to see him fall in love with her the way I fell for him.

I lost my best friend and my biggest reason to not hurt myself.