On the outside, I face things strong while on the inside I’m on the run looking for something that was never there so I chase after other people thinking that they’ll really care this will be the person that’s always here for me but secretly I know that they’ll probably just leave me or become another person that constantly hurts me.

There is becoming too much to hide so I let it bleed out, Bleed out my leg and down the blade. I next find myself in regret thinking “okay now it’s time to let someone know” but we both know I’m not going to say a word to anybody. So, the battle continues to control me constantly reminding me of the person that is me. I’ll be cleaning for 3 months then there I go again I start to feel empty and feel like can someone just kill me?

This is life. It’s a bunch of circles you’re trying to break free of but it’s probably actually breaking you cutting deeper every time. So, this is what I’m left with. Words that don’t even phase me words that include “love, care, hope, trust, better, faith, friends, family”.