This is going to be a long one, possibly one that can shoulder off all of my bottled-up feelings.

So, please, I insist, grab a drink, or a snack, and have a sit.

I haven’t originally plan to just spout all of my problems online, although I had it in my mind for a while. Truth be told, my main objective here is to just say everything, and leave nothing behind. I don’t really care what will become of this submission.

So, let’s get into it, shall we?

…

Ah…

Just as I thought.

Nothing is coming out of me.

Funny, isn’t it? The way how you tell yourself that you’re absolutely 100% going to commit to something, but you end up not committing to it. How sadly disappointing.

My mind eradicated all thoughts of… practically everything, just as I was about to start. I am now left with a blank slate.

Maybe this is because my zodiac sign is a Scorpio? They do tend to bottle up their feelings a lot.

My heart hurts, for some reason, as I’m writing this.

This is… problem #1

When I was small, I had dreamt that I would become a writer. From there forth, I started writing stories and posting them online. I wouldn’t say that they received much attention, but, it has improved my writing by a great deal.

So, although many can say that my writing is almost flawless, what good is a writer when they can’t even express their emotions into words? A useless one, that is.

These feelings, thoughts. I can’t show or place them anywhere else besides shoving them in my heart.

Even with the greatest amount of motivation to do so, I, cannot.

So then, I trashed my dreams of being a writer.

Even as of now, I stop.

And think. But my mind draws scribbles. Circles, over, and over, and over again, till I am completely erased.

Thus, even without a conclusion, this is, #1.