I’m trying my hardest to get myself and my life in order but it feels like no matter how hard I try… I’m just not good enough for him? I hate it that I love him. That I trust him. That I thought he was different. That he doesn’t love me back or even want to be with me. I never should’ve let anyone get close to me… I’m so sad because I truly do love him. It was all soooo different but I guess not. Oh well. One more mistake.