Things keep getting harder and I don’t know how much longer I can keep this up.

I started dating my best friend in August last year and everything was just so perfect and magical. We shared very good moments together, but everything ended this year in May when he said he wanted to get closer to God and didn’t want to focus on anything else. It was definitely a big thing for me, still is, after almost 2 months. I love him, more than anything in this world and it hurts so bad to be apart from him.

Since the day he broke up with me, we’ve been talking and we still talk about our things, like best friends. The thing is, I feel like I’m trapped in this toxic friendship and I know I can get out, but I’m not sure if I want to, since he’s the best person I’ve ever met, and the truth is, I don’t have anyone else. For almost 9 months I was used to be with someone every day, and feeling loved. Right now, there’s no one and I feel completely lost. I need help, and I’m desperate for solutions cause this whole situation doesn’t let me sleep at night, eat and be at peace with myself.