Alright. This is the first time I have ever admitted this but I am a home wrecker. I have been seeing a married man for about 3 months now and I can honestly say that I love him more than any other person I have ever been with. (I’ve known him for well over a year but our relationship has grown in the past few months).

Other than being “the side chick”, a big kicker is he is a 45 years old and I am 19. Why would someone of my age go with someone who seems to be going deflating in the sex department? Because I honestly do NOT put sex over everything else.

I grew up on sappy Disney movies so I believe true love is very real. And I have learned that age doesn’t really matter if two hearts are intertwined. In this way, I will never be bored with all the endless stories he has to tell of his extra 26 years of existence. He plans to divorce his wife of 18 years soon (Not because of me, mind you) and I’m almost dreading the day when we come out of the dark.

One reason is because his oldest daughter is 21 and his oldest son is 20. I’m scared of what people are going to say of such an age difference and I’m scared that people will try to call him a pervert and accuse him of taking advantage of my naivety. I understand what I am doing, and have been doing for the past few months, and I have stayed up many nights wondering how I can cut it off but I always come face to face with the pain that will ensue once I walked away.

I have felt guilty that I have been interfering with his marriage and I have deprived myself of sleep just to avoid the fact that I may be the worst person on the planet. But I really do love this man but the guilt is eating me away and shame is beginning to creep in. I have struggled with the decision of staying with him through his divorce or breaking it off before it went any further. I can’t really tell you which of those I will choose, because I don’t really know who I am anymore. Anyway, best of luck to me, the slut.