I’m childish, and I want a love that doesn’t exist anywhere but in movies.
I can’t stop dreaming and waiting for it even though I know it won’t come.
The thing is, I’m already 27, damn it.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not single, I’m not virgin either. I had boyfriends. Maybe too many.
I even had a husband, once. He left me.
Maybe because I wasn’t able to give myself to his content?
I don’t know what I’m exactly waiting for. I’m not scared of being alone. I’m not scared of anything.
But I want something I can’t have.
How can I get over this stupid idea?
Stop waiting. You have experienced enough to pick the right partner for life. He doesn’t have to be perfect like in the movies, he simply has to be compatible with you for the rest of your life. Someone whose company you would enjoy. Keep in mind we all die alone anyway. But also keep in mind your path of life is for you and you alone too. The significant other is only there to make your journey easier. And it’s not even wrong to have a few, but the more time you will spend with a single person, the more profound effect he will have in your life.
We never get the one we dream about. And even if we do, it always turns out we wanted something else.
I have to tell you that it is really okay to have this kind of feeling. Who doesn’t want it? All I can tell you is keep believing that you can have a relationship which you want. And, write it down on the paper. You have to believe that you can have it in the future. The word (Believe) I mentioned is really important. You have to feel that you already have it in real life. It’s the law of Attraction. Believe it or not, I use this method all the time. And it worked somehow. If you want to know more about the law of Attraction, you can read ”Secret” this book. I’m sure you will love it. 🙂