I don’t even know why at all I’m typing in work in this space.
While doing so I now realise I am very very lonely.
At 25 I don’t have a boyfriend.
I don’t have a reliable job.
I can’t even maintain good health because of my not-to-be bossed about bad addictions (wondering if the addiction is alcohol drinking/smoking/getting drugged? Lol but fortunately or unfortunately none of those! Silly, but yes, its mere addiction to dramas and serials)

Enough of all this, I really need a break.

OH, yaa didn’t say yet na… I can’t even go well with my own family members. They have hopes and expectations from me and here I am a capable and lethargic person.

Guess I need to visit doc. Many as I think but a psychiatrist and ophthalmologist first as my eyes started burning and I really really hope I don’t lose my eyesight because of my stupidest addiction habit.

I don’t really want to blame anybody for whatever I am as I know its solely my damn fault and no one on earth and universe is responsible for my situation.

God!! I want to be alone but I don’t want to be lonely.