I’m writing because I need to clear my head. I’m going through a very hard situation in my life right now. Have you ever felt like you were the cause of most of the problems in your life and you want to do everything in your power to make yourself a better human being? I do. I want to be change my outlook on many things, my attitude, and I would like to become a more passionate and loving individual.

Today a manager of mine told me something that stuck in my head. So, he told me that “An apple is an apple, and no matter how much someone wants it to be an orange or a mango, it is only an apple.” I returned with “What if the apple is bruised, and it wants to clear up and fix itself because it doesn’t like being bruised.” He then came back to me saying “Then the apple needs to decide what it needs to fix. The apple can only be bruised from not getting enough sunlight, too much sunlight, not enough water, too much water, or by hanging to close to another apple” I need to figure out how I can get my life back on track. Whether it’s losing something or gaining what I need.