My life has always been a mix of good and bad events.

But today I want to die. Why do I want to die, let’s find out.

I have been working in a software company for 1.8 years. It seems a long time when you don’t like your job.

Yeah, I don’t want to work… here. I want to leave my job and I am planning to. But what after that?

What will I do after that? Go home and sit idle? No way. I don’t even want that. Even this society will not let me do so.

I will be forced to take up household work, then after some time, marriage! Worst thing that can happen and will happen.

I will have to find some way out. Govt job preparation? Not interested. MBA exam preparation? Not capable enough.

Then what? This very thought is killing me inside. I have not yet found out an answer, a suitable answer.

And that is why I am not able to gather courage to leave my job. But working here is becoming very hard day by day.

That’s why I want to kill myself. Dying at once is far better than dying piece by piece every day.

But don’t worry, I am not going to kill myself over such silly reasons.

I will try to hold patience…until my head explodes!