I’m just so hurt, and so pained. I have tried countless things, including counting from 0 to 100.

All which seem to make me more upset. He claims that he was drunk and didn’t know what he was doing. They were my two best friends, I trusted them. He has confessed to me countless times that nothing would ever happen between them. Then why do I feel like she forced it upon him while over hearing that.

I said I would let it go, I am just so attached to him that the more I let go, the more I fall apart. I’m losing myself, and the man I thought I loved.