I find that no matter what I do I can never be happy. School is boring and sad; my friends are assholes who put me down a lot and don’t include me in things when they make plans when I’m in the same room as them and when I ask them to do something when I know they are doing something they ignore me.
I’m pretty anti-social I suppose you could say, like I talk to people all the time like at school but when it comes to making friends and doing something with them like hanging out I’m not too good with that. This weekend my body felt numb, I’ve had this feeling before.
The classic heavy head feeling with no motivation to move or eat, and I just sit there pondering with a feeling of my head weighing five times more than normal. But this week it stuck out to me because I’m realizing how sad my life is.
I don’t have a girlfriend not in a relationship at all, but I am talking to someone and I think that ship has sailed. I just feel like I don’t have anyone close to me and have someone to cheer me up or make me happy. I don’t know if this is depression or something (not self-diagnosing) but if it is it would explain it a bit anyways this was a rant for me of how bad my weekend was.