I feel like I have no purpose, I am currently in college, but I always feel so alone, like I have so many friends and also my family there for me, but I don’t know why I always feel like this. I recently got out of my first relationship and I feel so alone, like I never needed him before meeting him why do I need him now? Worst thing is that I think I never loved him maybe I only loved the idea of someone loving me since I was always so self-conscious.
Now that I am alone I feel like I need somebody again, I feel like I cannot function on my own anymore, while dating him I never felt alone and now I do again. I just want to love myself enough to not need anybody else’s love that doesn’t deserve me. I know what I deserve which is why am single again and don’t want to go through the same pain again that I do not want to date another person yet, but I crave being loved so much and so soon, I want to experience that first relationship feelings again. I just want to feel happy without needing a partner and don’t know if something is wrong with me, but I just want to stop depending on someone else to know my worth and my beauty.