I have some serious problems to deal with and I don’t know how to. I’m eighteen years old and I’m going through some shit, I have just broken up with my girlfriend because she had a severe depression of some kind and I could not deal with it but I tried to help her but it wasn’t enough.

I did everything I could until I ended up with some kind of depression myself. I could not feel myself anymore and I cried myself to sleep, but I tried to help as much as I could but at last I couldn’t anymore and had to break up with her.

It was the best decision ever for the both of us, she is now in treatment and I’m getting better, we both are and It’s great. But now I hate myself I hate myself because I broke up with her and because I feel like I let her down and I will never forget that. I hate myself so much that I have begun drinking just to not feel the remorse. I hope to god that when she gets better and I stop drinking and get better she and I will come back together and have a great relationship together. The only thing I’m afraid of is my parents and my family they hate her now because of me and because I made her look like a bad girlfriend but it was because of her severe depression not her. I feel like a jerk and an idiot because I let her go and gave up on her.

I hope I get through this and she come back to me but I wouldn’t blame her if she don’t.