I have been in a place of darkness. I don’t like it and I want to stop. It mostly comes from just being depressed. I have friends who talk to me and they do support me. I just hate feeling this way. Most days I just want stop everything. I know that it will get better but every time I feel okay, life pushes me down, and I hate it. I just feel like I whine about it too often. I know it is good to talk about and not bury it, but someday I want to shut everyone out and lock myself away.