So, this was it… I came back to this place which were the darkest, scariest, saddest, loneliness and all the negative parts of it… I promised myself not to get in here again but… I’m bad at keeping promise. I never felt like this before maybe because I got everything I need whenever I want but this time I’m pretty sure that my life’s fucked. From all these time, I am convinced that I already found someone that I’m sure my other part and I’m really happy to know it. But I can’t accept the fact that I was hurting her and I did it just to fed my ego that successfully dominate my mind… it was my fault and I always remember something that my friend said “don’t shit where you eat” but I never take that particular sentence seriously and all I know now that I already shit all over myself like a diarrhoea, it’s disgusting and humiliating… so… through all these mistakes, I learn something that nobody can teach me that “don’t judge the book by its cover”. It may sound easy to understand but deep down inside it’s fucking difficult and confusing… if you’re interested reading this, you may also go through the same thing… or maybe you’re someone that I’m talking about… if it’s true, I want you to know that I’m sorry for what have I done to you and I love you so much that I’m willing to do anything just to make you happy…